When it's over

When it comes to hard times in a relationship, theories on how to handle this problem seem to be divided by the generational gap. The wisdom of my elders seems to suggest it's possible to work through anything, while my passionate and fast-paced teenage co-workers are always "moving on to the next." I, finding myself right in the middle , am starting to believe it is truly a combination of both; some things are worth staying for and some people are worth running in the opposite direction. Quickly. With age comes pet peeves, and thus, a level of personal tolerance. Anybody, who encounters people EVER, has learned what they can and cannot deal with in another person, romantically or otherwise. That sounds easy to me. Unfortunately, once emotions get involved, the ease seems to fade into the complication of tears, sadness, and I love you's. How is a person supposed to know when they've tried hard enough, and when is it okay to hurt another person's feelings in salvation of your own? Can the leaver ever truly convey to the left that this is the best thing for both of us?? When do you know it's the time to hurt another person in exchange for your freedom....

So sick...

Lately I've been asking myself (A LOT) what was I thinking when I went out with a guy 6 years younger than me. One major thing I've realized... he's really not as mature as he thinks he is. Plus, he's starting to annoy me. I mean, he's still a nice guy, although his manners aren't quite what I thought they were; I just don't feel like we're on the same level, and I'm tired of being broke (which I realize I blame him for, but hey, I wasn't broke when I met him!!)

I'm sick of staying up till 10 o clock to make dinner and I'm sick of not feeling appreciated for it. Honestly, sometimes I'm just sick of looking at his face. I don't even want to kiss him--- it's actually gotten to the point where I make faces every time he tries to kiss me ( I've even shooed him away a few times, but I had to play it off so I wouldn't just be a big ass jerk)

Apparently, as with every other relationship I've ever had, I've just outgrown this situation. I actually gave my number out for the first time since we've been together; it was two days ago. Why am I still here?? I feel like I've lost my edge; usually this fool woulda been out of my life a loooong time ago (yes, I kick 'em to the curb quick lol) I know it's because I allowed myself to connect my life with his....UGH!!!! What the hell was I thinking?!?!

I just feel like I want to run away..