My walk through "The Valley"

Lately, I really have felt like I was in a Psalm, walking through the valley of a bad friendship. I've been overwhelmed with negative emotions more than I care to mention, and I have been very afraid of those emotions; I truly felt like I was walking blindly in the darkness. What do you do when you don't love a person anymore; do friends "break-up?" I mean, does somebody make it official or do you just stop talking and let your relationship fizzle? People keep saying we'll get over it, but when is history not enough to make a friendship? Is there a limit to the amount of times a person can treat you like crap... for no reason (cuz, I guss in my mind, if you have a reason it's somehow different.)
I've been wandering in confusion, asking myself those questions over and over again. I don't know why it took me so long to realize I'm not the one who can answer those questions.
PRAY. Who better than the Lord to bring some clarity to my life. I won't say I have an answer to any of my questions, but I do have some peace, which is what I really needed. I'm neither angry nor sad, just peaceful. I now that the only thing I can do is trust that a higher power can lead me in the direction I need to go. Whether I'll come out of this with a friendship, I can't say, but I'm not afraid of what's happening
p.s. I'm still open to advice *smile*

"Who Killed the Electric Car?"

As a person living in a world that is constantly questioning the idea of global warning and carbon emissions, it saddened me to know that we actually took a step in the right direction and progress was stopped dead in it's tracks. Does anybody even remember the electric car?!?!? Apparantly it came out about the early 90's, which would make people in my age group around 12ish (give or take a year.) It wasn't until I was well into the movie that they showed a clip of an old commercial for the electric car and my brain went DING!! I REMEMBER THOSE COMMERCIALS WHEN I WAS LITTLE, AND THEY WERE HORRIBLE!! The music was all depressing and the commercials were all dark--- except for the one where all the electrical appliances started unplugging themselves and 'traveling' outside to "meet" the electric car---does anybody remember that commercial from when they were little??

Here's a BIG question... why are we fighting over oil, I mean, starting wars over oil, when we had the oppurtunity to ease our dependence and we litterally crushed it. Why would a car company (GM) produce an electric car, try it's best to make it look bad, refuse to supply the car to people that wanted to buy it, then basically repo them all and just destroy them. At one point they were producing electric cars and them sending them straight to be crushed and shredded. Does anybody really want us to make progress? How do these things happen and nobody knows about them?!?!?

As Americans, why don't we care more about what's happening around us, not just in other parts of the world, but in our own country. Everyday they are making laws that whittle away our rights and decrease the quality of our living just so somebody can get rich. amd we do nothing about it. How much do they have to take from us before we decide to stand up and do something?!?!?

Babies, babies, babies :)

Today is Mother's Day and I think that is so exciting. It seems like all my friends had babies last year and it's exciting to be wishing them Happy Mother's Day for the first time; it's like you literally added a holiday to your calendar, and everybody loves holidays.

I konw my mother will probably never get a chance to read this, but she is awesome--and now the whole world knows!!! I am thankful to have a person in my life that I can truly talk to about ANYTHING, and she can always put my mind exactly where it needs to be, even when she's not saying exactly what I wanted to hear. I am thankful to have a person in my life that tries her best to understand me even though I know I can be a very complicated person. She loves me when I'm a jerk, and commends me when I'm not. My only regret is that everyone doesn't experience this kind of freedom, love, and honesty in their relationship. My mother tells me she loves me EVERYTIME WE SPEAK, even if we just had an arguement.... I know people who say their mother never says I love you. ( on a side note, maybe that's why my roommate is always so angry... love is very powerful, even just the words... I love you, girl, even when you hate me and hate on me)

I hope everybody finds and shares love today, not just with your mothers, but with everybody. I LOVE YOU.

Dear Lord WHY?!?!?

That seems to be the number one question on my mind lately... Why? I never claim to be a perfect person, but I try to be a respectful person; if you're cool with me, I'm cool with you. If we're not cool, just let me know. I think those are pretty simple rules. Suddenly I find myself in a house where the peace has been turned upside-down; I just want someone to tell me Why.



A few Sundays back, I had a nice lunch with my roommate. A live band played as we cracked jokes over a made even more delicious by the fact that it was free meal. Life was good. Fast-forward to today and, somehow, I'm an internet sabotaging, mail stealing who know's what she's calling me these days. I just don't understand how all this drama happened, like I must have watched it in a movie or something. It all happened so fast... I'm still confused!! I was angry, like, what did I do to deserve any of this!?!? It's not like I surround myself with lots of people, so you'd think the people in my life would know that and realize they are in my life for a reason. Why??? Why would somebody that calls me a friend believe that I would intentionally terrorize them... and by sabotaging some internet box that I don't even know what the heck it is?!?! Why??? Why would I steal a person's mail. I live with you!!! She never thought to ask me if I was expecting something that hadn't shown up yet( I was, and never for a moment did it pop into my brain that one of my roommates had hijacked my mail)



To make it even worse, I endured all the accusations and being cursed out by my roommate (who knows I hate being cursed at) only to find that she was in posession of something dear to me that I had made such a fuss about losing. I cried, I was so angry. UGH!!! I just don't get what's going on, and all this drama sucks, for lack of a better word. UGH AGAIN!!!



i feel a little better now. thank you

My Passionate NO for HIllary

Why do people keep voting for Hillary Clinton?!?! At a time when we are trying to rejuvinate our country after what everyone is calling "Bush Economics," how is it possible that some have chosen to stand behind a woman that has proven herself an outright liar, not just once or twice, but almost everytime she opens her mouth? From a more personal interpertation, simply put, Hillary Clinton is a HATER!!! Do you really want a HATER running your country?!?! We all know haters lack the ability to act reasonably because they are driven by the desire to weaken and tarnish all that is at peace. In case you haven't figured it out, I cannot stand Hillary Clinton!! (or haters for that matter?)

Hillary Clinton stands for more of the same old underhanded, sneaky, whatever-it-takes-to-get-ahead attitude that we need to be getting away from. Remember when all this began and Barack Obama had just stepped on the scene; everything was nice and polite, all "I want to bring you universal healthcare- her plan really isn't as wonderful as she would like you to believe - and get the soldiers out of Iraq;" We watched debates about the issues and learned what a candidate could do to truly improve our quality of life. We talked about education, tax cuts (maybe), and new foreign policy. As the months went on, the American people started to regain their faith in the process. Voters turned out in record numbers. More young people were getting involved, excited by the democratic process and ready to excercise a right so powerful a man could chop off another man's hand because he had it: the right to vote. Ladies and gentleman, we had ourselves a race.

That's when the trouble began; as soon as Hillary Clinton began to experience some real competition, the slander campaign began. Now I see Rev Wright on the news every damn day. Did he jump into the democratic race and I somehow missed it? Why do we care so much about what this man has to say? Next we were asked to question whether Obama is patriotic enough. What exactly does that mean, anyway? Is a flag door mat patriotic, or is it better to have a flag hanging in your yard? We are at war; if you think the war is wrong, are you being unpatriotic? And, since we're on the subject, when was the last time we talked more about the war and our soldiers than we did about Rev Wright and a supposed elitist, out of touch Obama?! It's all become quite sad as we've watched the real issues shrink under the cloud of the Clinton smear campaign. Is this really the person you want running your country, the person who bobs and weaves the issues as she pounds us into confusion with a dirty Obama 1,2 punch? WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE BRAINS OF YOU HATER HILLARY SUPPORTERS?

Now she wants to obliterate Iran. As I asked myself, "Did she really just say that...out loud...on TV?!?" I was reminded of her flat out fabricated sniper experience. Yeah, she said it...out loud...SIGH...on tv. Once again, this is not the direction we want our country to be taking, more of the Big Bully American foreign policy. What's the point of having translators if nobody's talking? I've got a t-shirt idea--Iran is the new Iraq--Out of the frying pan, into the fire, anyone?

Well, if you've made it this far, I hope I have been convincingly passionate about the woman I have officially named Hater Hillary deep in my thoughts. She is simply more of the same, and that is exactly what we need to get away from to move forward. Voting for Hillary is voting for trouble. What would you do if you heard somebody say they would obliterate YOU? Think about it.